Dr. Drama

I hate to admit that I am a Drama Queen. Honestly, everyone is-in their own way.

Thankfully in this instance I did not create it, but it existed around me, was directed at me & I got too emotionally involved & invested in it (as usual).

I was already feeling emotionally drained by living in a new, unfamiliar city, and feeling isolated & alone when the soap opera of my most recent job began. I left my hometown, moved away from my family & friends, & sold my house for a "too good to be true" job in FtW.

I belive the stress of the job contributed to my miscarriage, I left or lost so much for the sake of that job & am quite possibly clinically depressed again over every little bit of it.

There were many incidents commited by my boss (lets call him Dr. Drama) that I saw as unethical, actions of poor judgement, & downright ridiculous. Very quickly he saw where I stood ethically & he retaliated. He used my miscarriage as a mindgame & a weapon against me. Payroll was hardly ever on time.

The vast amount of stress that was produced in that job had me drowning in drama & gasping for air.

Once I began having chestpain at work, I knew I couldn't take it any longer.

So, I QUIT! But I only had partial relief. He still owed me my last paycheck, and he was still treating my coworker & the patients horribly. I felt so guilty for leaving them to face him alone. I'm having a hard time distancing myself & letting the assistant fight her own fight, I want to take care of everyone & make it all okay.

In a way I envy everyone in the past that has been able to shrug him off & cut their losses. But at the same time this has me questioning, if we all do that will he ever cease to abuse the title of doctor? Is it my place to stand up for what is right? Can I be the one to scream out "STOP"?  I believe so, because it only takes one person to jumpstart change, even if you stand alone, fight for what is right, be the vocal advocate of ethical standards.

I am so ready to be completly done with Dr. Drama so that no longer he plays a part in my life, he has an unwelcome hold on me. I want  to be emotionally invested in other things, happy things.
Thankfully the day after I quit, God provided me with a wonderful job that I start on Monday. Here's to yet another new chapter.....